I’ve officially been gone from my last job for a year (as of Sunday.) I find it so weird to compare and contrast where I am now and where I was. In a lot of ways there are similarities.
For example, I have a backlog of funds in which I could quit my job and go traveling. That was one of the reasons I gave for leaving my last job and I never really got that chance. Other than the Boise trip, which I would totally do again in a heartbeat.
Or the fact that I still like I’m not doing what will makes me content.
I find myself constantly being reminded of the reasons I left my last job and trying to validate my desire to leave this job. Honestly, I know that I should stick it out but it’s hard when you want to be putting your time and effort elsewhere.
I wish I could tell you that I have it figured out now, but I don’t. It’s been a strange year for me. I’ve felt very stagnant mentally while the world around me shifts and changes. I want to be part of that excitement but I also like stability and routines. It’s difficult for me to find the balance.
I took a few weeks off writing and now everything feels difficult. Trying to jump back into things is quite a challenge for me. I feel like I have so many ideas but none of them have words to go with them. I’m confident it will come around. I just have to be patient and not give up as much as I want to.
I hope all is well. Have you been practicing a second language with me this month? How’s that going? I’ve been having a blast! One of my favorite songs is on French so I’ve been trying to learn that on my guitar. It’s coming along but I still have a ways to go before sharing it.