Change is inevitable. You of all would know that. With a new month, comes a new year and a new resolve to be different than you were before. Better than you were before.
I have met change with hesitancy, January. We said goodbye to my old dog Noah this months. As expected it was the toughest decision I’ve had to make. I knew going into it and coming out of it that it was the right thing to do and it still hurt. No matter how prepared you are to say goodbye, it always comes as a surprise.
On the heels of goodbye, I felt myself struggling to escape the darkness. I woke up tired and went through the motions of what needed to be done and then came home tired. I couldn’t break through. Though I speak of this in past tense, January, I don’t think I’ve made it to the other side yet.
Over the years, these letters have served as a way to communicate with many different people. Some times they were for her, sometimes they are for him. This one might just be for us, January.
This time I think we’ll keep it short and sweet, January. Thank you for being there for me year after year, greeting me with open arms. I know this time was hard but I know next time will be different. After all, change is inevitable.