Wanna Bet? – 100 Life Challenges

I haven’t been excited like this in a while. This month, my partner and I stopped by a bookstore and came across a book titles 100 Life Challenges. This book is exactly as it sounds. It is filled with 100, 30 day challenges. Originally I was drawn to this book so John-Robert and I could…

A Letter to May (2018)

Dear May, I’m sorry I’m late. This month came with hard conversations. Confrontation, tears, and heartache. I did not want to put myself back in that frame of mind to write this letter. Even right now as I write this I am hesitant to keep going. Having been writing letters for a year and a…

A Letter to April (2018)

Dear April, I’ve always thought of myself as strong until I had to say goodbye. In that moment, I believe I was stronger than I ever could have imagined. It always easy for others to say when enough should have been enough. Of course, we’re never that lucky, April. Last month I reached out to…

Forever

I used to turn to you Time after time Thinking you could save me How unfair it was To weigh you down With all of my baggage When you deserved the chance to fly Maybe you could call it love Through a sepia toned memory A silent film That could never convey The whole truth…

Good Heart Gives Up

I woke up this morning My “good heart” weeping I read somewhere to fear the day when a good heart gives up on you And I wonder Is my heart so good if I gave up? What happens when enough is enough When I’m laying in bed Dreading the sunlight Knocking on my window It…

Another Life

I wonder if, In another life, You could have loved me And I know you love me now But I mean love Sleepy-eyed, bedhead love Take you home to my family, love Forget my family Take you home, love I wonder if what keeps us going now Is knowing how perfect we are for each…

Detox

Detox Or How to stop checking your phone for a text after a break up 4:30am The dog woke me up again to let him out I check my phone before I go back to sleep It’s too bright and too void of you I get a message at work that is short and to…

Life and Death

I don’t mean to be this way Cynical and cold But I say something quick, like What is life but a slow death And maybe I believe that to be true Because I never have felt more alive Than the day I was born After that It’s all just fading Slipping out of memories Forgetting…

To Be Honest

I don’t hate you for leaving But I wish you didn’t have to I wonder incessantly if maybe Things would be different If you had just stayed And of course, Of course they would be Maybe not in the way I want But in a way that’s just Different To be honest with you I…

Tonight I Am Goodbye

Tonight I see goodbye Stamped on the back of my eyelids Like the imprint of a neon sign Long after it’s gone. Tonight, I am alone. As I always am Locked inside this prison Begging to go home again. I didn’t mean for it to be like this But there is nothing strong enough To…

Pause

I want to tell you that I love you But all I can offer Is the pause before my favorite song The way my heart does a flip the moment the words begin I want to tell you that you my dear Aren’t the words to my favorite song But the breath before 4/2/17

Unkown

You wouldn’t believe me if I told you But if you pull me closer I’ll rest my head against your chest And whisper of my love And how scared I am Of all this unknown territory But Let’s not worry of tomorrow Just wrap me in your arms And tonight We will be okay 9/29/2017